jus a day in tha lyf.

so much 4 mr. nice guy! i trully believe now, tha nice guy always finishes last. wit that said,... say goodnyt 2 tha bad guy!

jus how im feelin!

you heard tha man.

random thots.

well folks, i got a chance 2 get out 2day. went 2 maximus job center. tha lady that was helpin me, kool as a fan. she gon help ya boy as much as possible. so im grateful 4 that. after that, i went grocery shoppin. special shout out 2 "refugee". ertym i dont have 2 spend cash, yay! neways, this week wasnt 2 eventful. only source of entertainment i had was, Triple C's album barely sold 12,000 copies. Rick Ross n Dj Khaled both need they ass whoopd. Def Jam is already talkn bout droppin them. 50 cent is a beast. how he jus shuts niggas careers down is so funny. piece of advice, leave boo-boo alone. well folks, tym 2 check out ultimate fighter. peace.

first day of tha week.

its sunday, yay! another fuckd up day in tha neighborhood. me, still on house arrest, bout 2 snap. neways, twitter is tha dumbest shit ever. i guess i jus dont get it, so i say, "fuck it"! neways, jus sittn here watchn scary movies. im really not scared, but hey, sumbody is scared of this shit. folks, this is day 2 of my vow of silence. ive only been communicating via txt, and blog. my phone has not rang but twice in 3days. if u wanta holla, txt me. im so fuckin serious! i think alot of people mistake my kindness and lightheartedness for a weakness. im really gon change tha way people see me. my new outlook on life, im done bein labeld. im almost 2 tha point of fuck all yall. i keep gettn pushd, evn tho im alredy on edge. i dont think im being taken seriously. its sad at this point. im jus tired. i guess i been a certain way so long, its hard 4 people 2 see me ne other way. guess what folks, time 4 a change. ive always done things tha way people xpectd me 2. not nemore. im not a womanizer, im not a male whore, im not a drug dealer. these r all labels that ive carried wit me since a teen. im done, so done. i alredy see how people treat me different jus bcuz im startin a transition from boy 2 man. some call it a pivotal turn. others call it mid-life crisis. me, im jus tired. sum dont get it, sum do. whatevr tha case, get ready 4 a new me. if u cant roll wit me, get ready 2 get rolld ovr.

yea, i think it all starts 2day.

well, its been about a week. this is what im on. in psychology,they teach us that body language is 80% of all communication. so what is that say about actually speakin? i figured it out, i dont need 2 talk, shit, hell, niggas aint listenin noways. i dont think im an unreasonable person. i dont really think that people are 2 concernd wit me neways, so ill play my position. strong silent type. i was never tha type 2 call people out their names, or tell them tha wrong direction if i didnt know ne better. i really dont argue points i dont know nething about.. makes me wonder y people dont listen. o well, i know how 2 solve all this. stop talkn. it only represents a small part of communication neways. so folks, understand 1 thing, dont take it personal, talkn is overrated. maybe if i stop talkn, people will hear me more. this world is so backwards. as 4 me, there's a sandford n son marathon on. thats whats up! until i find sumthin 2 blog about, peace.

well, 2day was a good day. got 2 go hang in tha welfare building all morning. that was fun. ran into old skool mates from webster. i trully njoyd myself. had a couple shots of whiskey wit my new partners at "roadrunners". oh yea, i will b hangin wit them when i get this shit off my leg. i was only there 4 a sec, had 2 get back home, feds dont play! it was all good til i got a call bout my son,"fatboy". this lil nigglet, dont wnt 2 do his math homework. we've had alot of talks about skool and lies. these r tha only things, really, that will get ur ass whooped. all my kids know this. so when they violate, i dont spare tha rod. tha sad part about all of this? "fatboy" looks xactly like his dad. our baby pics r identical. he thinks skool is a place 4 social acceptance. i think we all went thru it at some point, but this dude here, his first reaction is tell a lie. so, me bein me, i let him dig his on grave, then murder him. he always tries 2 offer some lame-ass xcuse that has nothing 2 do wit tha problem at hand, like his misdirection is goin 2 confuse me. i really think that he gets away wit this tactic wit his mom, so he thinks hes some sort of jedi. when he goes into his act, i jus stop him in his tracks. his favorite line, "i dont know". pretty soon i think he will be stayin wit me. all of them come and stay around 12 or 13. so he tryin 2 come early. 4 now, hes here on tha weekend. we got lots of make up homework 2 do, so ill get at yall later.

i saw this episode of cheaters 2day and i had 2 put it down. this is tha funniest shit i seen all day. tha thing that moved me so much was that she spit in his face! nasty! me? i wudv killed tha bitch in front of tha whole world. big mama said," im cumn 4 ya, im cum 4ya!" halarious!

first of 48, pay attention.

well people, i been doin a lil reading lately. im deep into this book, or shud i say manual, 48 laws of power!

first law, never outshine tha master.
always make those above you feel comfortably superior. in your desire 2 please or impress them,do not go 2 far in displaying your talents or you might accomplish the opposite- inspire fear and insecurity. make your masters appear more brilliant than they are and you will attain tha heights of power.

this is tha first installment. i will bring you all tha laws as i learn about them, and give u xamples from my life. even tho im trapped in a corner rite now, i will have power again. so 2 all u haters out there plottin on tha kid, wait til i blow, yall really gon hate me! alphabet boys not gon giv me life, so i will b back.

well, im back!!!

well folks, i finally made it back 2 tha keyboard. 2day startd out fuckd up. 5am, phone jumpin off tha hook. my grandma cryin, granddad stop breathin! well, me bein on house arrest, i cant do shit. cant evn leave 2 go c whats up. so i feel like shit 4 tha most part. "refugee" calld. she is so funny. i love her. she always keep it 200. u gota respect that. she aint sugar-coatn nothin. neways, we chat a lil, she xpresses her sympathy 4 "pops", then we part ways. "baby gangsta" spose 2 b comn 2 see me. im jus sittn here watchn tru tv. i love this channel. i really dont feel 2 hot bout life rite now, but i know that god is really testn my faith. i will keep tha faith. my head has been hurtn since my grandma calld. im really tryin not 2 stress, but its hard. along wit tha trials n tribulations of life, i got these legal probs. gota stay strong. on top of all that, evry mothafucka got jokes when it cums 2 this fed shit. i really dont see tha humor in it. dont they understand that prison is not a nice place? i did 3 years 4 tha state back in 2002. i guess erbody think they can joke about it, cuz im tha type of guy that wud rather laugh than cry. they jus dont know that im cryin inside. niggas go 2 tha joint erday. guess people get desensitive 2 ur feelns when its like that. what im gon do? im gon chill, play games, love my family, n clean out my closet. its situations like this that shows u who ur real friends r. i aint trippn tho, im tha only child. im use 2 bein alone. im all fuckd up rite now. ill try n find sumthing else 2 blog about later, til then, peace.

so far, so.............?

well people, 2day was a good day. i finally got a few hours sleep. like 4. thats major 4 me since tha feds let me go. still was up by 8. im likin 2day cuz i got sumthn 2 drank. now thats whats up! special shout 2 "mini-me". actually holdn ya boy down while i got tha alphabet boys in my bizzness. neways, ya boy bout 2 lean back! mayb ill get a full 8hrs 2nyt. i really jus been chillin. nnjoyin my family. im learnin 2 appreci8 them more. im happy. i been surfin tha web a lil tryn 2 find sum nterestn subjects. i came across sum shit that i found disturbn. i want 2 pose a ques. 2 tha world. do u think that Jay-z is part of tha illuminati? judge 4 urself.

dysfunctional family!!

Well, first off, my day was goin good. had a good meetn with tha lawyer. sounds hopful. 4th amendment! then.....tt called from down yonder. her kids, which r my 1st cuzns, r wearin her thin and it hurts me bad. now this is my 2nd mama. when they have her cryin, i wanta go whoop they ass, but as u all know, i cant leave tha house, much less, state lines, so im stuck wit jus tha idea. i dont like seein my mamas hurt. now i know that sum of yall dont kno me, but if u fuck wit either 1 of these women, i will kill! aint enuff tym left on tha planet 2 stop me from doin it if u fuck up. i jus cant understand how niggas, real niggas, let niggas hit they mama. my uncl is a world class woman beater. thats his m.o. this nigga beats his woman, thats got grown ass men 4 sons. like i told her sons, if sum1 hit my mama, whoa! im gon snap. y is it that he cant understand y they want 2 tear his head off.? he mus b retarded. as u can c, my day was a lil stressful. i jus hope i beat this fed case. o yea, i am goin all tha way wit it, no plea. jury trial! neways, im not feeln 2 good these days. 1 thing that did make me feel good 2day was "baby gangsta" came 2 see me. until later, peace.

MINDFREAK!!!

criss is tha truth! i dont know how, but damn! dude must b a demon or sumthing.

OFFICER RICKY!!!!

now check this out, if u dont kno by now, i roll wit tha general.

heres sum footage of ya boy, officer ricky is at it again. along wit bein a bad liar, sucka 4 luv, and a dead beat dad, tha mothafucka cant evn walk straight.

"refugee" hit me up this am wit her favorite rappers clumsy antics. man, 50 has alrdy ended yo career, lay it down. go take care of yo kids nigga! im broke and i take care of mine. spend tym if u dont wnt 2 spend money. i dont understand these lame-ass niggas. "u tha biggest drug dealer in miami", but u dont take care of yo family? NEGRO PLEEZ!!!

well folks,thank tha almighty 4 antha day. meteor aint killd us yet. man, you know im gon b up in this bitch bored, rite?
so im watchn maury.... u r tha baby daddy! lil black ass ugly duckling, showin her tru nature. y do black folks get nfront of a camera n act a damn fool! if u ask me?(i know u didnt ask, but hey...) shits sad 2 me. jus further proof that we all aint got 2 much tym left. so make sure u thank tha man.

tha general is at it again!

this is halarious! fat joes rap career is over!

free atlast!

well folks, sorry 4 tha delay, but when ur in tha custody of tha feds, cant blog.
yea, u heard correct, FEDS! on sunday tha 27th, tha ATF, thats right folks, ATF! never thot that i wud b nvolvd wit tha damn feds. this shit is crazy. i guess its all part of that streetlife. I QUIT! real estate is tha next hustle. soon as i get past this bullshit. yes, believe me, im goin 2 fight! so if i lose, see yall in a few years. these mothafuckas is not playin. well, im gon get my mind 2gethr, and try 2 entertain u people. til later, peace! atleast they let me out. rite!

dont push me, cuz im close 2 tha edge, im tryin not 2......

Good morn people. me? jus thankn tha lord that im breathn. gotta giv thanx. neways, yrsterday was aight. went down by "2nd n lane", as tha "refugee" wud put it. hung out wit tha young people. aint nothin happnin. holla at my folks then im out. cant do 2 mch, feds in my bizzness n i dont work wit police, so, best 2 ride alone. shit, im use 2 it, been alone most my life. so, had a shot, on top of 2bars of xanax, like whoa! so yall know i went n sat my ass down. im goin 2 start havn a camera wit me as i roll so yall can get a feel of sum of tha shit i see. guess ill b doin alot of bloggin. guess ill try 2 keep up wit current events, cuz my life has becum quite borin. also, "refugee", i saw ur lil blog, i see u, i see u. keep doin what u do. o yea, "nunu and tha beautician", love yall 2 death! u always hold me down, uncondionally! 4 that, i got u! 4life.without my family, i wounld have shit. neways, im high. also, "bessie bug", big up son!!



now these r tha type of niggas that work 4 tha police. startd workin wit tha feds since 93. brothas of tha struggle, heres 1 of tha reasons yall went down. i feel 4 u. these snitch ass niggas need 2 get a wack cross tha head when he get 2 tha joint. he need it. die snitch die!

i hate tha police!!!!!!!

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THIS JUST FURTHER LETS U KNOW.............. FUCK THA POLICE!!!
THANK YOU ICE CUBE N N.W.A

HATERS!!!!!

THA SONG SPEAKS 4 ITSELF. CUDOS, JIGGA! U AND KANYE PUT OUT A CLASSIC.

well, seems like erbody want 2 see if ill do it.......

here we go again.... i really dont think people hear me, or is it that they dont want 2. either way, im fuckin tired!!! tired of it all. i wish i was havin sum bread rite now, id get my ass on that hyway n hit town, fast! but as we all know, haters, haters, haters. why i got so many, baffles me. all i do is show love. i aint never told on a nigga, a day in my lyf. believe me, i got dirt on niggas. im talkn dirt. 6 ft in tha dirt, rite. but neways, i dont operate wit tha police, so what do u do? i got a good support system wit my mom n kids. a few friends, not many, but i cant play in tha street nemore. haters, im bout 2 change games. 1 thing, if i find out that this nigga is workin wit tha feds, o boy, its gonna get hot. now, that brings me back 2 people who dont here me. ussually, i wont speak on issues, if i dont know what im talkn bout, not argue. why wont they take heed, evn tho ive proved my point tym n tym again? sad. then hate cuz i shine. jealousy n envy breeds hate. i refuse 2 hate(til i find out who tellin) ne1. this is my thing, i will continue 2 show love, n u, ull continue 2 hate. hate me! n tha words of tha gr8 diddy,... die motherfucka die! i wont stop now! u can hate me now!
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jus my opinion

OFFICER RICKY! this dumbass nigga still fallen 4 tha okie-doke. Man, get yo job back wit tha DOC. This fat mothafucka!!! He aint learnd shit from 50 fuckin his bm. o yea, this post is 4 "refugee". thanx 4 all tha good advice 2day.

events 4 2day

yo people, i almost 4got what an eventful day i had. naw, 4real, i didnt do 2 much. had argument wit "refugee" this am. seems she got alil jealous cuz she thot i was checkn 4 "med gap", plus its been a min since i was on tha hoe strole. so this show of effection was shockin. i love her tho, she always keep it hot. she got over it rather quikly once she realized that "med gap" was old news. neways, nothin like ole "refugee". also, put tha word out that if people wont listen, then y talk? if i continue 2 b unheard of, i will go mute. i know its gonna take alot, but hey.... rite now, at tha crib wit fam. "tha boss n mini-me 1" watchin sum garbage. me, im tellin my story. i guess tha real hi-lite of tha day was "tha golden child" called me! i was geekd, none tha less. we xchangd love u's and miss u's, i almost cried. 4real, im a real live gangsta n dont cry! theres a few more colorful characters around. i will update u as we progress. neways, im at tha crib chillin. o yea, "heartless asshole" txtd me 2day. play 2 much. well thats it 4 2day. check out that new 50 4real.

jus my opinion.

50 at his best! old man hov dont want it! ggggg-unit!!!!

jus my opinion.

this is tha gerneral at his best, i love this song. dont get me wrong hova is hot, but ya boy fif! fire!!

first day, get ready.

Well, here we go. First day of the rest of this life. 2day was a lil boring, sat around most of tha day. ignored tha phone all day. my life is pretty much fucked up at this point. it all startd at tha age of 14. couldnt follow tha boss' rules, so i had 2 hit tha bricks. first bad descision, hookd up wit "casper tha evil ghost". i startd 2 get n2 all types of shit. i was basiclly homeless. so i move my dumbass in wit tha ghost. of course, tyms is hard, so you know wer i went..........................? 2 tha street. first real crime i committd was breakin in2 a record store a friend of mine workd in. it was an inside job. we came away wit 3000 cash! i had jus turned 15. guess what i went and bought? dope and pistols! tha ghost was pregnant wit my son freckles. i stayd wit her 6years. we had 2 more girls, "mini-me 1 n 2". moms was in skool gettn her shit 2gether. i was in tha street, gettn my shit 2gether, i guess. neways, tha ghost and i broke up hatin 1anotha. it was a mess.
bad descision #2, while playin in tha street i run n2 babymama #2, tina turner. first of all, she was 15, i was 22. i know, i know,......r. kelly. neways, she lied about her age and i fell 4 it. by tha tym i found out how old she was, she was 3months pregnant wit "ups man". i was grindn good, so i took tina under my wing. her mama was on drugs, so she didnt care, plus i had work, moms loved me. we ended up bein 2gether 10years and had 2 more kids. "fatboy n baby gangsta". in tha middle of all this, i met "tha money bag". im so caught up in tha money, that i ended up knockin her up wit"tha golden child". we stayd 2gether jus a couple of years. alot of problems, so we ended on a bad note. this is jus a synopsis of how my adult life startd. i got alot 2 say, so eventually itll all come 2 tha light. let me tell yall this, as part of 2days installment, my folks "refugee"made sure that i got my foodstamps. i love u girl! now a nigga can eat good! o yea, b4 i 4get, i was talkn 2 this chick "medium gap". people, this bitch is thick, cute, n black as a motherfucker! really, i could take this bitch 2 moms, but she been gettn on my nervs. bitch gettn 2 emotional. i know my penis has her "dickmotized", but damn!! calm down!! we only friends, remember? i dont wanta blow my own horn, but........... i am good in bed. well im gettn sleepy, ill have more about my life 2mro. remember, COME BACK!