well, im back!!!

well folks, i finally made it back 2 tha keyboard. 2day startd out fuckd up. 5am, phone jumpin off tha hook. my grandma cryin, granddad stop breathin! well, me bein on house arrest, i cant do shit. cant evn leave 2 go c whats up. so i feel like shit 4 tha most part. "refugee" calld. she is so funny. i love her. she always keep it 200. u gota respect that. she aint sugar-coatn nothin. neways, we chat a lil, she xpresses her sympathy 4 "pops", then we part ways. "baby gangsta" spose 2 b comn 2 see me. im jus sittn here watchn tru tv. i love this channel. i really dont feel 2 hot bout life rite now, but i know that god is really testn my faith. i will keep tha faith. my head has been hurtn since my grandma calld. im really tryin not 2 stress, but its hard. along wit tha trials n tribulations of life, i got these legal probs. gota stay strong. on top of all that, evry mothafucka got jokes when it cums 2 this fed shit. i really dont see tha humor in it. dont they understand that prison is not a nice place? i did 3 years 4 tha state back in 2002. i guess erbody think they can joke about it, cuz im tha type of guy that wud rather laugh than cry. they jus dont know that im cryin inside. niggas go 2 tha joint erday. guess people get desensitive 2 ur feelns when its like that. what im gon do? im gon chill, play games, love my family, n clean out my closet. its situations like this that shows u who ur real friends r. i aint trippn tho, im tha only child. im use 2 bein alone. im all fuckd up rite now. ill try n find sumthing else 2 blog about later, til then, peace.